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| So.. in about 5 hours I'll be in the air, about 30,000 feet in the air  i hate flying.
The good news is, however, that I get to see my mom in about 14 hours! YAY.
My first flight leaves SEA, WA 7:00am and arrives at Georgia around like 2:00.. no it's not a 6 hour flight, it's 4 hours. (take in the time change!) then leave Georgia 3:19 non stop to New Orleans, Louisiana. A whole like 40 minute flight!!!! wow.... It's like flying from Spokane to Seattle..only shorter. yeah..
Right now obviously, I can't sleep. I'm to... twitchy, and unable to sleep. Which works out I suppose cuz I'm not so looking to flying so I can sleep on the plane. I rented a movie for my ipod though, Robin Hood Men In Tights. :D I've never seen it before so I'm kinda excited to watch it. granted I have one of the new ipod nanos so the screen is kinda small.
I spent at leasts an hour figuring out what i was gonna wear though xD it was kinda funny. I just can't be pleased right now, not gonna lie, not in a great mood. Alright i think im gonna get off and enjoy my new music.
PEACE OUT. pray for me ;)
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| just got back from camping with grandma and the boys.
It was fine.. minus the occasional whining. We went swimming and camped in the motor home. :) I finished two books,
Loose Girl: memoirs of promiscuity
frightening fourteen.. or something fourteen, the 14th book in the Stephanie Plumb series. I was really excited to be able to do that for once in a long long time.
Now Dad and I are watching Stargate SG1.. surfing the computer.. I'm a little stressed though. AJ was going to come this Saturday (speaking of.. hold on..I'm checkin the weather, we're supposed to go tubin on saturday) The only thing is.. he'd stay Saturday the 28th of June till July the 8th and dad's not too thrilled about that. Understandably but the thing is.. his parents are gonna be outta town, and on top of that, I'm going to be gone in july for 2 weeks to see my mom in Louisiana So if we waited for him to come till the 4thish.. i'll have gone two weeks without him to see him for 4 days to go another 2 weeks without him. I really don't want to do that.
on a brighter side I suppose, Mom's getting married. Yay for mom, and I'm her maid of honor. :D I'm super psyched, never been a maid of honor. She's having it in Vegas but I don't know when or where. i wish AJ could come but i dare not ask.
oh well.. cya. I've gotta great grandma sit from Thursday till Monday :(
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| so yes.. i'm not in a good mood, and yes I'm going to rant a bit, but hey.. that's why you're here.
I realized the other day that when it comes to making out or doing anything romantic or sensual, I ALWAYS initiate it. I make it possible, i organize the time and place if it's not spontaneous and even if it is, I bring it up. Even if HE'S the one that wants it the most, or wants it at all, I initiate. SO... I decided.. I don't want to do that anymore. I decided I was tired of that. I'm tired of doing all the shit work. If he wants some he can get it himself, but I'm tired of starting it all.
On top of that, i lost my keys, I have NO idea where they are or where they could be and I don't know what I'm going to do. I've looked everywhere but so far I've found nothing to even point me in the direction of where they are. On top of that... I have to find them by Friday or else I'm screwed. I need to leave this place somehow.. and right now i don't even know what I'm going to do.
So on top of loosing my keys and the stress of dead week and telling AJ he can be teh initiator from now on we got into a fight and for like the first intentional time we did not eat dinner together. I don't even know if he went to eat dinner because i got NO message of an invitation or anything so I went on my own. I'm not complaining, dinner isn't that bad alone, i got a bit of homework done and that was nice..
I'm going to a concert soon. For my music class and I'm hoping I don't have to sit next to him. I'm still very angry with him. frustration on top of frustration.
Oh well cya
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| Hey, this is gonna be short..
I'm going to see if this will remain.. probably not. Along with the million other attempts to write a blog, or journal.
I'm now a Freshman of western, junior in credits. My first year is almost over and this summer is going to be awesome. Im hopefully gonna use this too for the summer when I'm away from home and dont get to see AJ. He can see what is going on when I dont get coverage. Also.. since I'm goign to be an RA this will be a good place to vent.
so that's about it. I think we're going to play Star wars DnD...? *asked Dane.. AJ's current roomie* He will be done fairly soon with his game so we can play... but i dont know if we actually will play cuz it's already 11.. so we'll see.
Other than that, I live in higginson, a suite style out-door community. :) I am/was Hall Council president.. and I HATE my theory class this quarter I am taking... Eng 370 intro to linguistics Eng 313 hist/crit. cultural theory.. Music 104 Appreciation of classical music.. and my RA training class. YAY FUN! Note to self... don't have deitrich again if I can help it.. we don't mesh well. ps.. take Stevens if I can help it. :)
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| You know those times, when you have a feeling about yourself, but you dont want to believe it. Then you find out from someone else that the one thing is true. You can't deny it anymore, and you beat yourself up for being that way. You want to get angry, but you can't cuz in all honesty, its only your fault. You want to scream and throw something, but you cant, because all you want to throw is yourself.
That happened to me today, and I hate myself for it. I feel horrible, and I want to apologize for it. You don't have to listen, you dont have to even care, I just needed to get that off my chest. | | |
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